I feel like that was directed toward me. Maybe it wasn’t but at this moment in going to take it as it is. Maybe you are better than me, but obviously you’re not what he’s looking for. But then again maybe it wasn’t directed toward me.
I get this thought. It’s awful. Actually this thought always comes along, doesn’t matter the time or the day it comes when it pleases. It makes a knot form in my stomach and a lump in my throat. I hope to god my thought does not come true